"Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light!"- Madeline L'Engle
Today I'm celebrating 6 months since my knee operation! Whoohooo!!
And I celebrated by running on a treadmill for the first time yesterday which felt empowering and amazing! Now I know this might sound really boring, but to me it was like jumping outta a plane with a parachute and this is why:
I was instructed by my doctor not to run, dance or play tennis (3 of my favorite things in life) for 6 months after my op to allow the new cartelidge to fully form and harden enough, and I thought it wouldn't be that difficult... boy was I wrong!
We always think we are stronger than we actually are...or at least I do!
I don't think I realized how my restriction in movement, being competitive and socially active really impacted me as a whole body, soul and mind, and in turn affected those around me! I feel like I've crept out of some dark hole and seen the light for the first time in a long time! And it's given me a new found appreciation for all things healthy, active and positive!
For me not being able to move freely is a huge thing because I've grown up playing competitive sports, tennis, cycling , dancing! But the past 6 months has been like a whirlwind for me. It's not just missing the movement of my body, the heart rate being able to go up which creates so much goodness inside of me, the sweating and feeling like I accomplished something positive for myself and released a lot of frustration and stress, but it's the social aspect and the COMPETITIVENESS that I've missed as well. I realize playing competitive sports is healthy for my mind-set and confidence as a human being as well. And not having that aspect has really put me in a depressed state and a state of feeling inadequate and incompetent.
And what I'm learning about myself is that this is instinctive to who I am. My top strengths are competitor & achiever! So if I don't regularly take part in activities where I'm pushing myself to achieve and compete, I really do struggle with all other areas of my life: my confidence and relationships with others.
In the book of GRIT: The power of passion and perseverance by Angela Duckworth, she speaks about how extra curricular activities as a child creates resilience, perseverance and success later on in adult life. And I must say I do agree and experience this first hand. I'm thankful to my parents: my dad for inspiring me to play tennis, and my mom for pushing me to keep at it and persevere all the way into young adulthood. Because I can now look back and see how this taught me so many key life lessons, brought me opportunities and relationships and kept me out of trouble:) But today I'm thankful for the fact that it's helped me persevere in life, in my dreams and passions to push further beyond my known limits as a life coach , as an accountant, as a wife, friend and human being. It literally has helped me build up a confidence and a belief that I can push through just about anything, and today I stand here knowing that I pushed and persevered through 6 months of grueling boring re-hab and built up resilience and patience, knowing and hoping that I would be able to use my knee and my full body again one day!
New goals for my new lease on life and health:
- Finally become that Zumba instructor I've been dreaming about for so long!
- Start paying attention to what I'm putting in my body. I deserve it and need it to fuel all the things I want to achieve in this short life span
- Dig deeper and connect more with healthy living (and have fun while doing it!) mind body & soul!
- Reduce bad stress and worry brought on by incorrect thinking.
- Do more to help get decent sleep.
- Keep my mind focussed on productive living, and less on the things that are out of my control (locus of control).
This is good and healthy living!
So the point I'm trying to make in this post is:
- Know who you are and go after the things that are going to make you come alive and thrive! There is no point in playing small !
- In the waiting there will be pain and suffering - Learn to practice self compassion even when everyone else doesn't understand what you're going through.
- Become aware of the stage of life you are in so that you are able to show yourself compassion and understanding instead of being harsh towards yourself and others. This is really difficult to do and probably needs some outside perspective. It can't always be done by yourself or those closest to you.
- Do the things that make you happy! Come Alive! Stop being distracted by everything else.
The world surely needs more people who are ALIVE and THRIVING.